I am learning many things

I am learning about this world of blogging.. Also learning how to edit and learning that I am not as smart as I thought. This blogging is a lot tougher than it looks .. It seems my love is a good blogger that goes and uses them every day. I am going to learn from her. My goal with blog is to leave my mark in this world. To make sure I am expressing my feeling to others. So that they know the real me behind the masks.So today , I am sick.. my love went off to school.. I am still amazed that a smart wonderful woman like her was not snapped up long before and she let me into her life, I am still in Wow every time a look at her and think about this relationship. it seems so good to me I am sometimes lost for words. I am learning about relationship everyday how much work it takes the give and take. This tough for someone like me who has been alone for a long time. And some grew up be a little selfself .. I get worried sometime time that I will screw up this relationship some how. It seems to me that when my life is good I find a way to screw it up and lose it . But I am going to my best to keep this relationship going. I love the fact that I have her in life and someone there. I guess that is why I am in WOW so much every day. So happy..


On a different area of my life.. It is my friend's LaVa brithday coming up in a few days. I know LaVa on and off for years. I got a MSN from her the one day she said that I have changed, I guess I have . I have changed my focus in life to be one from me to us..and looking at things in more rational way I guess. Others have said i am more calmer too I owe all this to my love.