Getting back to life! Other ramdom thoughts

After being sick, I am getting things back normal or as normal as my life will have it.My love went to school today at left my house for the next two days or so. It is an empty feeling when she gone. We have been together only 4 mths but it seems like a life time when she is gone it feels like I lost a part of me. Also I my getting over a head cold I missed soccer last night. Last night a Part of me want me to be with the team and the smart part of me knew that it was rest is what I needed. This team Is a part of my life over 25 yrs or so it help me get thru alot. Death of my mom also help shape me to the person I am today. By letting feel a part of something. Growing up I as lonely kid because I was out cast in lot of ways. Sports help me to form friendship taught how to work with others and seek out a get a common goal and showed me how work to get it. It also help me out of my shell . As a kid I had very low selfesteem.Which the team help me got over in some ways.. I am a lot better than I was but there are days where I self esteem problems feeling that I have not gotton any where in my life. Also this team help me develop leadership skills that I never knew that I had. And the self awareness to do new things, Like this blog and running in the election... I love beeing part of the team.. But in last year or so I have been thinking of quitting the team because the fun is still there when I am with the team, but I think that I have out grown that need in someway..and now I have new thing that drives me . It is my relationship with my love all my decisions in my life from here to the end of my life will depends on how it will effect us. Also it nice to have someone to bounds things off. Her smart way of looking at things and her different view on things helps .She much more rational than I am it seems where I react first then looks at the fall out. Which seems to be the way I lived my life. Now I have to think first then react because my decision will affect someone I love so much. This is very good it has made me a calmer person. also a person that is not so selfish.

On a different note to South of us in that big country they have somthing called Super Tuesday.. What a werid process they have to pick the next leader of the free world. The real election is not until Nov. I wonder if those are real poor in the great giant of a country really care about the process?

In my counrty of Canada your process is so simple from election to election you can choose the best person not vote a certain party it seems our system is alot more serect ..I think..

I fired off a letter to soccer board yesterday to ask them to look at how they running the masters soccer progam. The "game" is the most inportant thing I feel that the new board has forgotton that they are the stewarts of the game and they should only make changes when is needed not because they want to. Look at how the game is being affected by teams getting killed by losing to teams that way out of there league. The " game 'is base on fun..